Part 2 of Tillie Jane

So I know most of you who read my first post are probably thinking I am crazy for not knowing or in denial or something. But dead serious I had no clue.. absolutely no hint (until my stomach got hard). So the reason they induced me on Feb. 4 was because she wasn't responding to anything during the ultrasound. She seriously wasn't moving. At that point it was an "I told ya so" moment... haha.. as bad as that sounds.. I told everyone I never felt her. haha... Anyways, I was an emotional wreck that day, okay I lie, that whole 4 days I was a wreck! But I couldn't help be excited for a new life. So when they told me they were going to induce me I just had to give it up. I put my trust in the lord and everything worked out. I mean EVERYTHING! So what I didn't include in the last post was the day I went to the Dr.s office, Addie my 20 month old was diagnosed with RSV. Seriously I thought I was living a nightmare. Luckily it was a mild case. But still when they told me I was going to be induced, they also told me she wasn't allowed on the floor. I was fuming mad. She's my baby, my best buddy, my little shadow. But Chris said to me, "Shianne don't be so mad, if we had a new baby and someone brought their sick kid with RSV we wouldn't be happy either" He spoke the truth, so I couldn't see Addie for a couple of days while I was in the hospital. But its ok she preferred "grandma and sie sie" anyway :( .. So coming home was way overwhelming. That first night I thought how in the heck are we supposed to do this. But as each day came and went the more blessed I began to feel. Oh did I say in the last post that I didn't have pre eclampsia, diabetes or strep b with her.. That right there was a miracle to me. My pregnancies have always sucked, so I was content with 2 children, so I thought ;)  So right now I am in a total "feeling overly blessed" state of mind. Tillie has added an unbelievable strength, and love to our family. She has changed us in ways I am sure we don't even know yet. Both Maddex and Addie have done great with her. Believe it or not I can't wait to see her when she wakes up, whether its at night or not. She just brightens all of our days. The only problem we have now is knowing that we didn't know, Chris and I are OVER protective of her. We feel like we need to be there 24/7. I feel like she's my first, I am not taking her anywhere for 8 weeks besides grandmas and grandpas. (RSV scares me to death) I can't let her out of my sight..  I get nervous haha... I can't help but think she is my little angel. Seriously 3 kids couldn't be better. We love our life even more now. Everything happens for a reason and I am sure glad Heavenly Father placed this reason in our life. He knows us and knows what and when we can handle certain things. Tomorrow I will post some pictures of our little family :)