Love my little family

These are just some random pictures from the hospital. Sierra (my sister) actually took these. They only allowed 4 visitors at a time in the delivery room once she was born or else more of our families pictures would be included.. we had so many people there to support us. I just can't imagine delivering a baby without of course Chris there, My amazing Dr, My mom and My mother in law. I know alot of people think I am crazy I let the "MOMS" in the room. But I couldn't do it without their support. They get me through it especially when I look at Chris and he's dying inside ;) haha but no seriously i love all the support... someday if they ever let me i'd love my sisters and sister in laws in there.. that would be amazing :)

I love the upper left picture of Maddex.. anxiously waiting in the waiting room.. the reason you see no pictures of Addie is because she wasn't allowed in due to RSV :( I was so so sad.. But boy does Maddex look excited to meet miss Tillie Jane.

More visitors... the second day.... :)

I am the worst at taking pictures.. so don't be offended if you came and I didn't get a picture.. We appreciate the love and support 

Here is the first time Addie met her little sister.. She has been the best big sister, I can't complain we had one "hit" and thats it.. the kids have done an amazing job adjusting. I couldn't ask for better kids. They are so nice to her and look forward to helping me all the time.. lets hope it stays this way;)

How can you not LOVE this little baby??! How did i not know she was in me??? ugh all I can say is... there is alot of loving now! She is such a blessing we couldn't love her more :)

Newborn Pictures

We did some newborn pictures of Tillie and the Family.. I think they turned out adorable ....

Here are some of the family ... (don't mine my just had a baby body ;)

I love my little family!

Part 2 of Tillie Jane

So I know most of you who read my first post are probably thinking I am crazy for not knowing or in denial or something. But dead serious I had no clue.. absolutely no hint (until my stomach got hard). So the reason they induced me on Feb. 4 was because she wasn't responding to anything during the ultrasound. She seriously wasn't moving. At that point it was an "I told ya so" moment... haha.. as bad as that sounds.. I told everyone I never felt her. haha... Anyways, I was an emotional wreck that day, okay I lie, that whole 4 days I was a wreck! But I couldn't help be excited for a new life. So when they told me they were going to induce me I just had to give it up. I put my trust in the lord and everything worked out. I mean EVERYTHING! So what I didn't include in the last post was the day I went to the Dr.s office, Addie my 20 month old was diagnosed with RSV. Seriously I thought I was living a nightmare. Luckily it was a mild case. But still when they told me I was going to be induced, they also told me she wasn't allowed on the floor. I was fuming mad. She's my baby, my best buddy, my little shadow. But Chris said to me, "Shianne don't be so mad, if we had a new baby and someone brought their sick kid with RSV we wouldn't be happy either" He spoke the truth, so I couldn't see Addie for a couple of days while I was in the hospital. But its ok she preferred "grandma and sie sie" anyway :( .. So coming home was way overwhelming. That first night I thought how in the heck are we supposed to do this. But as each day came and went the more blessed I began to feel. Oh did I say in the last post that I didn't have pre eclampsia, diabetes or strep b with her.. That right there was a miracle to me. My pregnancies have always sucked, so I was content with 2 children, so I thought ;)  So right now I am in a total "feeling overly blessed" state of mind. Tillie has added an unbelievable strength, and love to our family. She has changed us in ways I am sure we don't even know yet. Both Maddex and Addie have done great with her. Believe it or not I can't wait to see her when she wakes up, whether its at night or not. She just brightens all of our days. The only problem we have now is knowing that we didn't know, Chris and I are OVER protective of her. We feel like we need to be there 24/7. I feel like she's my first, I am not taking her anywhere for 8 weeks besides grandmas and grandpas. (RSV scares me to death) I can't let her out of my sight..  I get nervous haha... I can't help but think she is my little angel. Seriously 3 kids couldn't be better. We love our life even more now. Everything happens for a reason and I am sure glad Heavenly Father placed this reason in our life. He knows us and knows what and when we can handle certain things. Tomorrow I will post some pictures of our little family :)

Our little miracle

I have had SO many questions asked about our little miracle baby... that I decided I needed to get back on the "Blogwagon" and start a new blog (so I will actually blog now (I hope)).... So as most of you know we added a new addition to our family... Miss Tillie Jane

Here is Tillie's story: In December of 2012 I noticed my stomach was getting harder and my clothes a little snug.. but just thought oh its my thyroid.. as the month progressed it got worse. So when January hit, I decided I needed to have a new weight lose routine and enlisted my family. We came up with a "biggest loser" type challenge for those who wanted to participate. I was and am so excited about this challenge... But  I noticed my stomach was getting harder, much harder... So I went to the Dr. to get my blood drawn to check my thyroid... little did I expect what came next... they called me Wednesday night and said " We need to see you tomorrow, you are pregnant." I called Chris and told him, and instructed him that he was going to the Dr. with me. We arrived at Dr. Layne Smiths office (who i absolutely adore) and he said Shianne you are pregnant we need an ultrasound.... So we went to get just the little ultrasound he put the radar thing on me and said "OK you are REALLY pregnant I need the bigger ultrasound." I was bawling this whole time, not knowing I was pregnant then finding out killed me.. I was worried, I had, had a regular period, felt no movement, didn't swell up or feel crappy, I continued to take my regular medication such as birth control etc...  So we moved rooms and they decided I was 38 weeks pregnant and due Feb. 16... the day of the ultrasound was Thursday January 31. I was dilated to a 2 and 60% effaced  I was a complete emotional wreck, knowing I would have to go through labor and all again, but excited for a new life, how can you not be?! Chris was calling everyone while  I continued to be tested for diabetes, strep b, pre eclamsia anything we could test for at this point. I was too far along for the ultrasound to show much, it did show it was a she, and her heart looked good. At that point I went immediately down to Labor and Delivery and did a NST (non stress test) My Dr. was concerned and said he would take me if needs be, ( I told him if he made me stay he would be chasing me down the street haha) I wasn't ready .. I just wanted to be home with Maddex and Addie... well after about an hour and a half they let me go, He was really concerned about my fluid level i was at a 5 and normal is between 10-30. So he instructed me to come back in on Sunday for another NST. We left, we called our families, told them the exciting news... Everyone was really supportive. I was still in shock, Chris was so excited. I went to work the next day and told my co workers and my boss. They were shocked too :) Saturday came.. and I was in go go go mode. We got out Addie's little clothes, the bassinet everything baby... cleaned the house did the laundry and ran a few errands to get some baby things. Superbowl Sunday came we went and did our NST we passed again. I was instructed to come in on Monday the 4th. I went to work on Monday and left at 10:30 to get the hospital in time. I was checked in did my NST and did not pass this one... she wasnt moving so the nurse called the high risk dr and they told me I needed to be induced. INDUCED! I was so not ready.. Chris wasnt there.. I wanted to be with my babies at home.. I wasn't ready for my world to be rocked yet. I called Chris bawling and he quickly came to the hospital.. He gave me a blessing and I felt at peace. We called our moms to tell them the exciting news I called my little sis in AZ to tell her and she immediately caught the next flight home.. I needed her there.. she is my sanity and best friend.  They started my pit at 3:30 or 4 and broke my water immediately after. Contractions started and I was a complete whimp.. I was dilated to a 3 or 4 and got the epidural as soon as I could. I was a complete jerk to Chris, just like the movies, I told him I wanted to snap his neck in half and that I wouldn't even care. He kept eating in front of this starving pregnant girl.. and that just irritated me worse.. my mother in law was laughing because she hadn't seen my like that before.. but luckily my meanness went away after I got the epidural.. the babies heart rate dropped to below 50 (its supposed to be at  150) so they immediately gave me oxygen and juice to see if we could get it back up. We did and then my Dr. came to visit.. he said " I am not going home tonight,.... I am waiting here with you until you have this baby" Oh how I love my OB.. haha.. he seriously cares so much.. infact he told me he was sad I just found out cause we always have so much fun during my pregnancies.. now the right there is a keeper :) I felt bad.. it was family night and his wife was waiting to watch the bachelor ( I think he was relieved he didn't have to watch it ) So I told him I wanted this baby out before the bachelor at 7 pm.. I wanted to see who went home.. anyways back to the story.. the babies heart rate dropped again and this time we couldn't get it back up. The Dr. came rushing in and said "Shianne you aren't fully dialated or effaced ( i was a 9 and still 70%) he said you have one chance to get this cervix past the baby and get this baby out." The nurse came in the room with the c section stuff all ready to go. The respiratory team was there for the baby, boy was this room full... Sierra my little sis even got there in time :).. I pushed for 6 minutes and my little miracle baby was born :) and I got to see who went home from the bachelor too :)  haha... I will give more of the story and pictures tomorrow night ::)